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i miss those sundays where i'd feel happy because tomorrow would be another full week of school.
i really loved school.

i find myself aimless. doing things simply to pass time.
i feel distant from art. or is this but another way to live art?
im not sure, im afraid to accept this, any of this. and frightened to let it take over

i feel shitty. and its your fault. i dont care. it is

If there ever comes a day where this ringing gets so loud i cant hear anything else.
I might as well kill myself

what the fuck happened? and what the fuck is going on. hai.

i feel myself being different. and for the first time in a long while, i dont quite like it.
for the first time in a very long while, i dont quite like the way i am.
how did i get this way.

i think im scared because i know i'll be different when im back.

sundays are the toughest, you know?

the most painful half hour every week. is the dinner before going back into the crazy

i think september will be a good month

its okay. i have hayley williams. sort of. haha

hmm.

im halfway there. but it still seems so far away. as though 17 and 9 were the same.

do you know that feeling? that feeling when you want to give up, but you dont even have the option.


yeah. its kinda like that.

i just had a popsicle.
it was soda flavored with a cream center.
the rest of the box is still sitting in my freezer haunting me along with the 2 pizza cones.

i dont know what sorcery we are playing with anymore, but i cant do this much longer.
let it go, ok?

i can show you all the things in the world that would make me feel beautiful, and hope they do the same to you. but if you must run, i hope the road you choose is more beautiful, and where you go is most beautiful for you.

Maybe this blog should be named K3109 now. haha

im crazy. nobody calls me crazy. anymore

sometimes its fun to feel helpless.?

hello internet

suddenly i see, there are more important things. ha
it would be nice. but. meh, i guess?

:)

There is something I see in you.
It might kill me.
But I want it to be true.

I'm taking a break in May

Dear Ellie,

Please don't push your luck, I won't wait forever you know.

anybody... be nice, buy me a pair of Vater Recording once in a while

its like you want to take an expansion, but there's rocks in the way.
but then again they are DESTRUCTIBLE rocks. right? or are they?

The universe sent me message!
It said 'This forest has many many trees.'

Everybody should blame themselves.

i dont want to talk to the internet. but

if there's anything i really learnt from you and still think about all the time.
It is to just get myself into stupid situations, because im young, and i should experience shit.
So, this one's for you la!

i dunno if i'll wait
i dunno what will happen
see how la.

yes glenn, if you're reading this. its this serious.

you should go

its shitty being the cookie cutter sometimes.
cause when i want to freak out and go crazy, nobody will understand.
they'll just go wtf and be unsure of how to react.
maybe its my own fault for always making everything seem like its a potato.

or maybe i should at least try.

hope can kill you

some crazy shit going down

every time, the answer in my mind is hotel

Sorry Josh, i dont mean disrespect.
But its not RHCP without John.

Are you playing?

My favorite word is Fuck.
I love it, i love how i can use it, and how versatile it is.
Its fucking awesome.

my blog is fucking depressing wtf lolol

min, where are you?

maybe tomorrow will never come
but it'll be nice, and much easier if it came to me with my name on it
its not nice. this. its like. maybe this and that and this. thing that one.
ah. hello internet.
fish?